You just lay in their arms so peacefully as they stroked your nose and rocked you back and forth. You lay their perfectly still. Looking out the window your eyelids grew heavy and you drifted off into a deep deep sleep. We moved you here and there capturing every little detail…and throughout it all you hardly moved. It must have been a great dream or maybe you are just so tired from all of the exciting new things in this world.
As I lay in bed last night, my mind flashed back to last year to the day… to that moment when I first saw your face. You were the most beautiful baby I had ever seen and curled up against my chest, skin to skin…I remember everything stopped. And I just looked at you.
Warmth came over me like I had never felt before…it was the beginning of an unconditional love story between me an you.
The other night you climbed on up and laid your head on my chest. And I remembered with a tear in my eye the tiny little one you once were.
And while I shed a tear looking at the speed of time, I don’t want to return to last month or the one before (maybe I will one day, but ) right now I am so in love with you…at this moment. Somehow every day with you is better than the one before. Somehow you will make me laugh harder tomorrow and love you more than I can possibly fathom the day after.
So I ask, don’t grow to fast, but at the same time…don’t stop because I want to experience all that you will be every day of your life.
Happy 1st Birthday baby girl
With all my love- from the tip of my toes to the top of my head
( Sammy’s new constant fish face…that just makes me smile )
This is Ro Ro ( Roland) Sammy’s cousin…just say AWE!
Family, oh how I miss them…and I think Sammy already does too.
I love living in Boston, but we live far from all of our family…especially my parents and siblings. It had been 8 months since we had last seen Nana, Pop pop! For weeks my heart went pitter patter every time I thought about going…and now it just aches knowing we probably won’t see them again till Christmas. As I look through the pictures I wish ( as my sister in law always says) that we lived in a village all together. I know that comes with trials from being so close. But I would rather grow together than live miles upon miles separated for 99% of the year. Ugh…homesick.
But last week everybody went home to Holland Michigan…all 5 siblings and kids (right now we total 14 which is pretty awesome). We got their first and spent a day with Nana, Pop pop and Aunt Noel at the Farmer’s Market in Holland. We ate chocolate crinkle cookies larger than my hand, cherries (Michigan has the best juicy cherries)… and lots and lots of samples
Sammy didn’t think this was the best idea though. I think we are going to need to expose our little city girl to some more animals.
Part 2 coming soon!
Every time you look up, may you count the stars and know you are blessed.